Friday, January 16, 2004

Well, I ended up going to the doctor the day after my last post, and he went ahead and checked my cervix. It was high, firm and closed, so those were not effective contractions, thank God. He agreed with the afternoon rest and to keep hydrated. I have not had another episode of ctx since the 7th. They have slacked off considerably, and are just like normal Braxton Hicks now. Not sure what triggered them, but I suspect it had something to do with the baby's position and being very busy over the holidays.

I am still coughing! Have had this one since before Christmas and it is still hanging on. I hate coughing like this when I am pregnant!! It really wears me out. Amelia seems to be doing fine though. She is very active, and the kids have really been enjoying her belly gymnastics! I can put their hands on my belly, and they can feel her moving. Last night I was sitting on the couch and Cody (6) was watching her make big bulges in my belly and pushing them back in with his hand. He would laugh and laugh! He talks to her a lot, and says good night to her every evening. Cory(9)enjoys "belly watching" too when Amelia is in a feisty mood. He smiles his gorgeous smile and wants to touch her and feel her moving. Quinn (3) is totally not interested in seeing my belly move. He just doesn't have the patience to wait and watch. I am sure she will snag his attention a bit more after she is born.....especially when she takes His Majesty's spot in our bed. Yikes, I am hoping he takes it all in stride.

Bill will bring the bassinet down from the attic this afternoon. I was hoping he would get it down yesterday, but the evening slipped away and we never got it done. I am anxious to get it down and air it out. This will be the last time we will use it, as I think Amelia will be our last baby. I so enjoy having babies, so it will be hard to close that door of our life. We are not planning anything permanent, so never say never, but Bill is 46 and I will be 39 in a few days, so I think our ages play into this decision in a big way. Bill says if we had started having our kids earlier, age would not have played as big a part in our family size. We waited 4 years after our marriage to start our family, and I think we are so blessed to have 4 children come out of our lives together. Our lives have been intertwined for 16 years now and married for 13 years of that time. I feel like I have always known him. There is a song that reminds me of our relationship and one of the verses says; "The way we work together is what sets our love apart, so closely that we can't tell where I end and where you start". He is an extension of myself and when I am with him, I feel complete.

So, we will bring the bassinet down from the attic one last time, closing a chapter of our lives together, and with Amelia, opening another.

"Something That We Do"

I remember well the day we wed
I can see that picture in my head
I still believe the words we said
Forever will ring true
Love is certain, love is kind
Love is yours and love is mine
But it isn't somethin' that we find
It's somethin' that we do
It's holdin' tight, lettin' go
It's flyin' high and layin' low
Let your strongest feelin' show
And your weekness too
It's a little and alot to ask
An endless and a welcome task
Love isn't somethin' that we have
It's somethin' that we do

We helped to make each other all that we can be
Though we can find our strength and inspiration independently
The way we work together is what sets our love apart
So closely that we can't tell where I end and where you start
It gives me heart rememberin' how
We started with a simple vow
There's so much to look back on now
Still it feels brand new
We're on a road that has no end
And each day we begin again
Love's not just somethin' that we're in
It's somethin' that we do


Love is wide, love is long
Love is deep and love is strong
Love is why I love this song
And I hope you love it too
I remember well the day we wed
I can see that picture in my head
Love isn't just those words we said
It's somethin' that we do
There's no request too big or small
We give ourselves, we give our all
Love isn't someplace that we fall
It's somethin' that we do


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