tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-58161332011-09-08T17:39:58.975-05:00Fearfully and Wonderfully MadeJody, a SAHM to 3 boys is pregnant again after 4 consecutive miscarriages in 2002. Day to day struggles, worries and reflections recorded to help other women who have struggled with recurrent miscarriage.
Jodynoreply@blogger.comBlogger451100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1136946626163172662006-01-10T20:23:00.000-06:002006-01-10T20:30:26.173-06:00While I was keeping this journal, I had no way of adding pictures to it. Now I can! So, without further adue, I present Miss Amelia Grace, 21 months old:Jodynoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1100639483414067552004-11-16T14:56:00.000-06:002005-09-13T14:32:24.866-05:00Amelia is almost 8 months old now!! She is growing like a weed and such a complete joy to us all!When I ended this blog after her birth, I did start another on a different server, but did not post a link here. This blog was a journey that had such a happy ending....it just felt complete after her arrival. I wasn't sure what the content of the new blog would be, now that I had delivered Mia, so I Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1080849942435086592004-04-01T14:05:00.000-06:002004-04-01T14:17:00.373-06:00She is here!!!!! Amelia Grace arrived at 8:33am on March 22nd! She weighted 8lbs 1oz and was 20 1/2 inches long. We are sooooo excited to have her here with us! I can hardly believe it and each time I hold her I feel the wonder of it! There really was a baby in there, and she is healthy! After 4 miscarriages, and so much grief, there is finally some joyful closure!!
I went in at 6am that Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1079810151780289322004-03-20T13:15:00.000-06:002004-03-20T18:55:59.310-06:00It has been a long 2 years. I had my first miscarriage in February of 2002, and now will be giving birth to a little girl in one more day. It all seems so strange! Why the 4 miscarriages? Why did this baby make it? I know that I will never have the answers to those questions while I am alive......only God knows the reasons.
When I was grieving so badly after my 4th miscarriage, I rememberJodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1079743350293118232004-03-19T18:42:00.000-06:002004-03-19T18:45:37.983-06:00Had a VERY eventful night of contractions. They were so strong, painful and made me feel a bit sick. I got the shakes and that hyper-excited feeling that I have had with the other three kids. I was up most of the night, but they slacked off around 9 this morning. Still having them frequently, but not as intense as last night. We had gone to the little zoo south of here yesterday, so I was upJodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1079566605860852122004-03-17T17:36:00.000-06:002004-03-17T17:40:06.733-06:00Still here. Not much new to report. The ctx calmed down on Monday and Tuesday, and kicked back in today. They are about the same, but not regular in the least.
I am having trouble sleeping. I wake up very restless....sort of a hyper feeling...and can't get back to sleep for several hours. I tried a bit of Sprite last night, and it seemed to have helped, so I was thinking I might be Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1079286759968481822004-03-14T11:52:00.000-06:002004-03-14T11:54:59.606-06:00Tick, tock, tick, tock, tick, tock.....................................
8..........more...........days......................
Contracting pretty good this morning. Nothing regular, but they are there and stronger than BH. Also had another run of morning sickness. Ick.
This is going to be one loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong week. Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1079026903738572122004-03-11T11:41:00.000-06:002004-03-11T11:44:02.186-06:00Well, at least I had one good nights sleep. Last night was pretty bad. I had mild-moderate contractions all night long, about 5-7 minutes apart. I was basically up all night with cat naps here and there. I feel really drained today, so I hope sleep will come for me tonight.
I had my appointment this morning, and I am 25% effaced, 1cm dilated and she is still high, high, high. My belly Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1078939155730367902004-03-10T11:19:00.000-06:002004-03-10T11:21:31.793-06:00Sleep actually found me last night!!!! I feel so great today. I only had to get up once in the night to use the bathroom, and if I had any contractions, I sure didn't notice them! I can't explain how great it feels to be rested!! I feel like I have my second wind!
Things are really quiet on the contraction front today, too. Just an occasional BH, but nothing else. I really hydrated myself Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1078860290462056762004-03-09T13:24:00.000-06:002004-03-09T13:30:39.466-06:00Nobody shot me, things didn't calm down and I ended up in labor and delivery late yesterday evening. I was just feeling "off".......menstrual cramping and hard contractions that were sporadic. Lots of pelvic discomfort too. I called the clinic around 3:30, and Tim told me to go on into L&D so they could monitor the baby too. So, with all 3 kiddos, I loaded up and went on to the hospital. Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1078676280064259242004-03-07T10:18:00.000-06:002004-03-07T13:32:32.390-06:00Okay, so, alright already! Can I actually GET any bigger? I have officially hit the wall with being pregnant. I was so uncomfortable and frustrated yesterday and was crying at the drop of a hat......no reason in particular, but a combination of stuff..........such as:
I found out my mother can't come for the delivery because they started the repairs on her house (the roof and front porch Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1077984108828799072004-02-28T10:01:00.000-06:002004-02-28T10:12:30.840-06:00Still coughing! Unreal. I still have the bronchitis! I have been using an albuterol inhaler daily now. Dr. T thinks I have asthma. It is productive in the morning, then just dry, hacking all day. The inhaler helps make it more productive, but I hate having to use it. I just don't like putting all the meds in my body. Better that than getting pneumonia though.
The baby is growing, and at Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1076774735991989732004-02-14T10:05:00.000-06:002004-02-14T10:12:17.060-06:00This week was full of decision making! I had a routine appointment scheduled on Thursday, so at the beginning of the week Bill and I had a pow-wow and made some concrete plans about the birth.
As everyone knows, my past 3 births have been really stressful. Without going into detail, I can sum it up with the birth of our 3rd son, via VBAC. I had an epidural at around 7cm, and could not feel Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1076015745522517892004-02-05T15:15:00.000-06:002004-02-05T18:06:43.653-06:00Well, it has been an eventful week. My cough went way south last Thursday, and I had to start antibiotics and albuterol. I could hardly breathe. I was wheezing and unable to function. I continued to be very ill, and then Saturday morning woke up to an antibiotic reaction........same sort that I had with the first miscarriage. So, Bill ran to the clinic and got some benadryl and gave me a Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1075226736526576822004-01-27T12:05:00.000-06:002004-01-27T12:07:09.733-06:00STILL coughing. If I didn't know better, I would say this was pneumonia....or TB. But, it is not...it just FEELS that way. LOL. Antibiotics are looming in the near future if this does not clear up by my next appointment on February 5th. I have had it since before Christmas, so I have certainly given it time.
I experienced my 39th birthday yesterday! Only one more year to be thirtysomthingJodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1074269324206685072004-01-16T10:08:00.000-06:002004-01-16T10:10:06.373-06:00Well, I ended up going to the doctor the day after my last post, and he went ahead and checked my cervix. It was high, firm and closed, so those were not effective contractions, thank God. He agreed with the afternoon rest and to keep hydrated. I have not had another episode of ctx since the 7th. They have slacked off considerably, and are just like normal Braxton Hicks now. Not sure what Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1073494162430519122004-01-07T10:49:00.000-06:002004-01-07T10:50:35.360-06:00Water, water, water. I am drinking so much these days, I slosh when I walk. I have been having bouts of Braxton Hicks contractions that are pretty intense.....some very worrisome. Water and rest seem to help after a few hours. I always have BH with my pregnancies, usually they start around 18 weeks, but never this much. Maybe the difference is having 3 kids and staying busy. Whatever it is,Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1072911023603978882003-12-31T16:50:00.000-06:002004-01-02T16:33:45.390-06:00Christmas came, and went! Whew! We had such a great time! My mom was here for 9 days and we all enjoyed her so much. She made a ginger bread house with them, baked cookies, read them stories, cooked them lunch, snacks and dinner, and spent some real quality time with her grandbabies! I loved watching them with her. Very heart warming! It makes me so happy to know that they will have such Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1071849214757689332003-12-19T09:53:00.000-06:002003-12-19T09:54:28.856-06:00I can't believe how fast Christmas came up on us!! I am so thankful that I started getting all my shopping etc done early this year! I have never been pregnant during Christmas before, so the exhaustion is surprising to me. Not much energy for all the parties and running around!!
Bill had his office Christmas party last night, and it was fun. I wore a glittery maternity dress and heels, Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1071076440543409292003-12-10T11:14:00.000-06:002003-12-10T11:14:46.123-06:00All is well on the baby front! Had to do my glucose tolerance test today, and it went fine. It was a sweet breakfast, but after the final blood draw I went and got a bacon, egg and cheese croissant from the donut shop. Quinn got his first chocolate eclaire and loved it!!
My friend Donna had her baby on Monday! It is a healthy baby girl named Rebecca Leigh! She is adorable and it felt so Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1070469490298675322003-12-03T10:38:00.000-06:002003-12-03T10:42:26.246-06:00Thanksgiving was wonderful this year! We traveled to Galveston early Thursday morning and spent the day with Nana, great-grandpa and all the cousins, aunts and uncles. Lots of great food to eat...fried Cajun Turkey, baked Turkey, sweet potatoes, stuffing, green beans, rolls, salad, carrot cake, chocolate pecan pie, cheese cake etc etc............I ate myself silly. It was great to see all the Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1069540061343493422003-11-22T16:27:00.000-06:002003-11-22T16:28:09.076-06:00Ah! It feels like forever since I have put anything in my journal! Life has been running at full speed and nothing less!
We had the BIG ULTRASOUND on Tuesday and it was wonderful. The perinatologist and his tech were so great. They looked at everything and talked about it as they went along. It was so very reassuring and thorough! The bottom line was that the baby seems to be perfectly Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1068650853240786982003-11-12T09:27:00.000-06:002003-11-12T09:32:19.533-06:00Morning sickness is pretty much gone!!!!!! I still have a bit of queasiness daily, but it is so much more tolerable. Usually eating or drinking a bit puts it at ease. As for the flu, so glad that is over! By Saturday, I was feeling like myself again. Hopefully that is the worst of it and the remainder of this pregnancy will be a time of wellness!
Potty training is still in the works. Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1068133154694898862003-11-06T09:39:00.000-06:002003-11-06T14:37:25.916-06:00
Urgh! The flu hit me on Tuesday. I think it had been coming on since last week. I had one day of chills and a feverish feeling, with a scratchy throat, then 3 days of a constant headache, then Tuesday morning the vomiting and diarrhea hit. By 2p.m. I was down for the count with muscle aches and major weakness. Today is the first day that I feel somewhat normal. I am still a tad weak, butJodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1067777292433953702003-11-02T06:48:00.000-06:002003-11-06T14:38:05.526-06:00
Halloween was a blast! My boys dressed up as Ninja's, and were so excited. We had a party after school for all the kids at a friends house....the kids ate mummy wrapped sausage, pinwheels, witches brew, homemade candy apples and an assortment of other treats. Most of my friends have 3 or more kiddos, so there were about 23 kids running around in costume! We took a great group photo that IJodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1067372669078700542003-10-28T14:24:00.000-06:002003-11-02T06:52:23.806-06:00
Had my routine OB appointment today, and all is well! I am 18 weeks at the end of today, and I am measuring 19 weeks, which is perfect! The babies HR was 145-150. We talked about the delivery dilemma, and Tim reassured me that all would work out and not to worry. What, ME worry???????????????????????????????
He also scheduled my ultrasound with a perinatologist for November 18th.........3 Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1066857363605047322003-10-22T16:16:00.000-05:002003-10-22T16:19:45.696-05:00One more birthday to go this weekend. My oldest is turning 9!! Am I REALLY the mother of a 9yo??? Yikes!!! How time flies.
Goodbye all day sickness!!! It seems for the last 2 days, I have been feeling really good. I did throw up on Monday morning, but after that I was much better. I started eating scrambled eggs and salsa for breakfast, which has helped sooo much!!
Since Monday, I Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1066416723504737822003-10-17T13:52:00.000-05:002003-10-17T13:52:02.920-05:00Just a quick update today.
Morning sickness has been bad this week. Today I feel a bit better, so maybe this is my upswing. I had it until 18 1/2 weeks with my youngest. This too, shall pass. Blek
Still no major baby movement. I feel a thump every now and then. We heard the HB on Tuesday.........still thumping along at about 160. Wonderful. I am almost 1/2 way there!!
The pecans Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1066060290031628642003-10-13T10:51:00.000-05:002003-12-04T09:09:12.840-06:00Whew! Very tired here, but very happy! On Thursday afternoon I took off to serve on a Via de Cristo weekend. This is a really special spiritual retreat that lasts from Thursday evening to Sunday evening. It was so awesome!
ViadeCristo
Lots of food to eat, lots of singing, worship and fellowship. It is such a joy to serve on a team. I went on my "Walk" in Fall of 1998, and have been servingJodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1065714021541357302003-10-09T10:40:00.000-05:002003-10-09T10:40:21.133-05:00Things are very quiet here the last couple of days. The nausea is still in full force, with some vomiting yesterday, and the bone-tired feeling is here every afternoon/evening. I am hovering at a 1.5lb weight gain above my pre-pregnancy weight. I had lost 5.5lbs in the first trimester, and I gained it all back, plus the 1.5lbs, so I think things look good there. I would imagine the gain will Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1065572935774310382003-10-07T19:28:00.000-05:002003-10-07T19:33:47.310-05:00AC repair man did not make it on Monday due to it being his anniversary. Whew, the last few days have been a bit warm here. Being in Texas, you can't really depend on October meaning cool weather. It was in the low 90's, upper 80's Sunday and Monday. Monday was bad due to the humidity. Afternoon and evening until around midnight were the worst. This old house takes a long time to cool off Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1065305423727386372003-10-04T17:10:00.000-05:002003-10-04T17:14:19.716-05:00Took a few days off from my journal. No time! The boys were out of school a 1/2 day on Friday, and the rest of the time I have been busy sewing and enjoying the outdoors!
On Thursday afternoon, I got 3 down pillows made, a pillow case, and I finished my quilt top! Whew. In between all that, I have been coughing my fool head off. Still the common cold, but it is drip, drip, drip, and that Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1065029927456710112003-10-01T12:38:00.000-05:002003-10-01T12:43:36.790-05:0014 weeks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Whoohoo!!!!! Add a heartbeat of 160 today at the doctor, and you have a baby growing well and one week into the 2nd trimester!!!!! Someone pinch me!! At Warrington on Monday, , there was sooooo much walking and I got really tired after lunch. I asked a man if I could sit on his bench and he said, "As long as you don't have that baby"! I was so surprised...I Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1064886267021716742003-09-29T20:44:00.000-05:002003-09-29T20:48:31.620-05:00Got up this morning, and despite feeling really icky with a cold, decided to get out of the house. There is a huge antique sale in Warrington, Texas, this week, so a few friends and I loaded up and drove there to walk around and shop a bit.
I collect Jadite Restraunt Ware, so I expected to be on the prowl for a piece or two to add to my current set. I wandered around looking at all the stuff, Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1064787354942661492003-09-28T17:15:00.000-05:002003-09-28T17:17:01.140-05:00I have a cold. It started yesterday, and is pretty minor. Some stuffiness and a bit of a sore throat. It had been floating from child to child, then to My hubby, now it will end with me!
Long, self inflicted, stressful morning today. Woke up with very little breast tenderness, so I psyched myself out! Hubby took me over to the clinic and tried to find the heart beat with the "WORST Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1064700643322649642003-09-27T17:10:00.000-05:002003-10-29T14:47:12.883-06:00Soccer day!! Had the boys soccer games out of town today. We loaded up the car early this morning and took off. It was so fun to watch them play. This is our 6year olds second year to play, so he is still just getting the hang of it! How fun to cheer them on and laugh at the occasional "No, not that goal, the other one is yours!!". Hilarious! Our oldest, 9yo, is really into the game nowJodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1064497967763892922003-09-25T08:52:00.000-05:002003-10-29T14:46:19.930-06:00Have had no time to post the last couple of days. This is "Birthday Frenzy" week for me, as I have a kid that turned 3 and one that turned 6, and another this weekend that turns 46! So Wednesday was birthday party day for me. Had the 3 year olds party in the morning, and the 6yo's in the afternoon. Fun, but busy and tiring day.
So here we are, with 8 kids under the age of 4 running around,Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1064324937633060822003-09-22T21:30:00.000-05:002003-10-29T14:45:46.930-06:00Today was a very quiet, at home kind of day. Quinn was still whining and a bit cranky, so we just did our thing at home. I got lots of cleaning done, and even cleaned out the fridge!!
Still feeling bad. Seems the worst of it is first thing in the morning, and after 5pm. I know this will pass, and I am so grateful for the nausea, as it indicates, for me, that things are as they should be. Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1064240065390898162003-09-21T21:43:00.000-05:002003-10-29T14:45:16.806-06:00Whew! This weekend was busy. Saturday was Quinn's birthday, so we celebrated with a fresh baked cake and hamburgers! He got a brand new shiny blue bike! He was so excited! Within just a few minutes, he was riding it like a pro! He also got a new helmet and a horn! A nice 3rd birthday for sure!
More cravings set in, so I made a big pot of tortilla soup for Saturday evening supper. One of Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1064067282497656512003-09-19T21:14:00.000-05:002003-10-29T14:44:10.946-06:00Today some friends and I went out to lunch and did a bit of antique shopping. Had some noodle bowl and spring rolls, then off to get ice cream. The kids had a flavor called "Superman" that was blue and red. They all called it "Spiderman" ice cream instead, and to tell the truth, it DID look more like Spiderman ice cream!! LOL. I had mint chocolate chip, and payed for it later in the day.
Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1063921774344867592003-09-18T16:49:00.000-05:002003-10-29T14:43:26.603-06:00Today was a blah day. M/S all day long, and I was feeling very tired, hence another 2 hour nap. At this rate I will sleep through most of this pregnancy! LOL
I made a Ziti bake last night, and it was yummy at the time, but I think I ruined ziti bake for myself forever now! It is sooo hard to cook for my family when food is what I want to think about least!!! They have been surviving on Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1063830461554057822003-09-17T15:27:00.000-05:002003-11-24T17:57:21.840-06:00Had one sick kiddo last night. Quinn, our 3 yo, had fever and achiness. He felt so icky. But, DH had volunteered to watch the kids last night so I could go to a friends and learn how to make a quilt. So, after much guilt, decided Quinn would be fine with Daddy and off I went with my fabric.
Had a total blast, and in a little more than 2 hours had finished all of the 20 blocks of my quilt!!!Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1063729865756581142003-09-16T11:31:00.000-05:002003-10-29T14:42:25.810-06:00US was perfect!! Could see the baby moving around and kicking. All is well with the placenta and the baby is measuring 12w1d which is right on for my dates!! Wonderful!
The pain I was having might have been from the corpus luteal cyst. She said that when you're bowels get backed up they can press on the ovary and cause discomfort similiar to ovulation pain, but more intense. And yes, she Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1063718755519562422003-09-16T08:25:00.000-05:002003-10-29T14:41:51.370-06:00Had a doctors appointment yesterday and heard the HB again. That'll do! He said he can feel my uterus about midway between my pubic bone and my umbilicus. We talked about my worries, and he basically said that I could spend this whole pregnancy obsessing about the what-ifs and such, and totally miss out on the joy of being pregnant and the joy of the here and now with my 3 boys and my husband.Jodynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5816133.post-1063641535780418362003-09-15T10:58:00.000-05:002003-10-29T14:41:10.200-06:00Life after miscarriage is so strange. Gone is your innocence that everything will always be alright. No longer is pregnancy a joyful mystery unfolding every month and finally the pinnacle is reached, and you give birth to a gorgeous, miracle.
In contrast it becomes a daily struggle. Each minute of pregnancy is counted off as another hurdle overcome. Your life revolves around your pregnancyJodynoreply@blogger.com0